37 years old and in menopause. Bella couldn’t deny that the thought alone was depressing, let alone having to live with it as her reality. Her birthday came and left without her really feeling positive about being a year older. Normally, age didn’t matter to her; she was usually just grateful to still be alive. Yet, her birthday this year had left a sour taste in her mouth.
On the bright side, her surgical incision had healed nicely, and she was slowly getting back her physical strength. Then there were the famous hot flashes and mood swings. Aside from those symptoms that Bella knew were bound to happen, something just wasn’t right, emotionally. She couldn’t quite put her finger on it, but she could feel something bizarre developing in her once-twisted mind. Perhaps her mind was twisting itself around the hormonal changes going on in her body. It made sense, but Bella was afraid to embrace the possibility. She was afraid to admit to Nathan that she felt as if she was on the brink of relapsing into her bipolar symptoms. She’d relapsed before, and she’d learned to handle it just well. She hoped that this time would be no different: that she could prevent a relapse.before it took over her being. Rather than share her feelings with Nathan, she hid them behind excuses, telling him that her energy hadn’t quite returned, that her incision was still sore, that she still hadn’t recuperated. She was running out of excuses, but she hoped her emotional recovery would catch up before Nathan figured out that there was something deeper hidden behind her facade.
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