A stranger… That’s what she’d become. Not just to Nathan, but to herself. Her head was totally clear now, though. She missed being home. It hurt to see the fear hidden behind the kindness in Nathan’s eyes. The thought alone that things would never be the same just broke her heart. Still, daily, she tried to prove to that she was ready to leave psychiatric rehab.
“My maternal grandmother committed suicide… She died when my mum was pretty young, but I heard she was pretty volatile even before that. I am the only girl in my family… ironic, that I had to have those genes passed down to me. My brother Rico had a bout of depression, I think. But it was after a break-up, so I guess that can count as a ‘normal’ thing. I don’t really drink, you know? Not unless it’s a little glass of wine for a special occasion… Alcoholism runs in my family too.” “I probably would’ve had a glass of wine a couple of days ago… it was my anniversary, you know? 10 years married.” She sighed and looked at the psychiatrist. It had probably been the most she’d talked to any psychiatrist any time in her life. But she wanted to show that she was ready to talk. To be totally transparent. “What if I pass down these awful genes to my kids? It’s possible, isn’t it?” “Is that a fear you’ve had for a long time?” the psychiatrist asked. Bella nodded. “Have you spoken to your husband about it?” Bella shook her head. “I’m afraid to bring it up. Like that would jinx the situation or something.” She smirked un-humorously. “I know that’s a stupid way to think about it but… I would never forgive myself if I pass these genes down to my kids.” Later that day, she sat in her cell, a packed duffel bag on the bed beside her. She hadn’t called Nathan yet, because part of her was scared to go home. But at last, he picked up her phone - as it had been returned to her by now. “Hello, Nathan? ...I’ve been released. You don’t have to come get me right away though. Take your time, okay?”
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