“I can’t… turn my brain off…” Bella fussed. She’d done it all. Checked on the animals in the middle of the night. Walked around the wildlife refuge, Asha keeping her company. She’d checked the database and made sure they’d completed all paperwork for the animals. She’d even scribbled down a plethora of ideas for the wildlife refuge. Summer camps, educational programmes, “adopt an animal” programmes… the possibilities were endless as her thoughts were endless. She pressed the pillow over her face and tried her hardest to turn her thoughts off.
It was 04.00 and soon their morning was beginning. Nathan had awoken to her constant tossing and turning in bed. Before that, he’d tried to coax her into getting to bed in the first place. He’d forced her to drink chamomile and passion flower tea. But nothing was working. There was a constantly restlessness in her legs that made her feel like getting up and running around. Most of all, there was that intense fear that she was relapsing. She knew very well what this was. She was on the brink of a manic episode if not in the middle of one. She was afraid that it would drive her to do far more impulsive things. Drive her to delusions of grandeur and hallucinations. Very much like the one that had caused her to leap off her balcony years ago. Her thigh stung at the thought of that fall. Of the injury that had left her in pain for so long. Maybe she was an idiot to stop taking her medications. But hadn’t she known the risks before. Seconds away from having a complete nervous breakdown, she felt the pillow wrench away from her face and Nathan’s arms wrap around her in a fierce grip. At first she wanted to push him away, to tell him that he was making it all worse, but somehow, oddly enough, she felt her body relax slightly. She trusted him. This tight grip somehow brought her back to reality, calmed her thoughts a bit. “Hey…” Nathan whispered in the darkness. “I’m here. It’ll be alright.” And she believed him.
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