You know how sometimes we make up our minds or make decisions based on our expectations? Sometimes we're so caught up in our dreams that we make no room for reality. I, for one, have a habit of getting my mind wrapped around a dream and not carefully thinking through the what ifs.
Once upon a time, I was positive that Rome was the place for me. Well, for Niels and I. It was just a dream of mine. Then suddenly, I had big dreams for NYC. The big city! There are so many opportunities here. As the cab driver helps me unload my bags, I gaze at the large building in front of me. Haven... We meet again... I just don't know anymore. I drag all my things inside, say hi to the security, and go right to my room. Here, when I stare out the window, I can't see the stars. Though there's another beautiful view, I miss the greenery. The open skies. The fresh air. The feeling of being free. Memories of the past week tumble through my mind, and I can't help but smile. Hmm... such delicious memories. But now I have to let go of that and focus again. I love it here. I truly do. But is where I want to spend most of my time? Should I give up the opportunity I have here to embrace another opportunity I had this past week? So many decisions...
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Is my BFF pointed out, I'm free at last. Free as a (humming)bird. Free to date my love as I please, free to go to school in any city of my choosing, free to spend more time with family I once lost contact with... My heart is certainly much lighter. Last week, my family had a camping trip and I really enjoyed it. I got to spend time with my sister Ambra and I also had a heart to heart with my dad Roy. Before the end of the night, he gave me a really awesome gift. And it makes practising so much more fun! I got an iPad. This free little birdie is thinking of taking some ballroom classes. And since I've been working on playing the rumba on the guitar, I might as well work on some more rumba moves. Comments #1. Who'd you take the classes with? ;p
Niels van Loon #2. I have someone in mind who I'd like to invite ;) Amanda van Loon #3. Hmmmmmm lucky guy ;) Niels van Loon #4. hehe, indeed :p Amanda van Loon #5. <33333 Niels van Loon #6. :***** Amanda van Loon #7. Who said it's a guy dear brother? *sticks out her tongue* Marit Boterhoek #8. *giggles* I was actually thinking of saying that ^^ Amanda van Loon #9. Wow! I've beated the hummingbird? *grins* Marit Boterhoek #10. And I got beaten by my sister? *sticks out his tongue* Niels van Loon #11. Yup, I'm the champ here!! Marit Boterhoek #12. ^^ Amanda van Loon #13. I love you too, the both of you :p Niels van Loon #14. hehe, we love you too :p Amanda van Loon #15. Ofcourse we do ;) Marit Boterhoek Rhumba/rumba: a dance/genre of music, Cuban in origin and complex rhythm. I'm working on it, and it's really hard to play! On a side note: the rumba is also known as the dance of love. Who want's to dance with me? ;) ♫ Rumba by Yannick ♫ Comments #1. *volunteers for that dance*
Niels van Loon #2. *giggles* First come, first serve ^^ Amanda van Loon #3. *Laughs* Luckily I'm the first one then *winks* Niels van Loon #4. *laughs* I'm definitely glad you are. Amanda van Loon #5. *Laughs* Would you dance with anyone else than? Niels van Loon #6. Hmmm... maybe Marit. *pokes her tongue out* No other guys though ;) Amanda van Loon #7. *Laughs* Well, Marit's ok *winks* Niels van Loon #8. *giggles* Amanda van Loon #9. *blows a kiss* Niels van Loon #10. *blows a kiss back* Amanda van Loon #11. I love you Amanda <3 Niels van Loon #12. I love you too Niels <333 Amanda van Loon As if this night couldn't be any more amazing... look [charid=2642384 name=who] I found! *smiles widely* Comments #1. *gives a warm hug, smiling* You really are the best sis of the world. And yes.. you can laugh when I fall. *grins*
Ambra Pontremoli #2. Awww! *hugs back, giggling* Good to know. I'd only laugh after I knew you were okay for sure! Amanda van Loon #3. *grins* It's better to laugh with friends, than to cry alone. Ambra Pontremoli #4. Yes, definitely!!! Amanda van Loon #5. You really make me feel welcome here at your family camping trip. *smiles* It's good to be here. Ambra Pontremoli What an amazing day! I had the best birthday wakeup ever, thanks to my wonderful bf. And I got two incredible gifts. My Made by Marit waterproof watch and my breathtaking diamond necklace from my love. Of course, I wish I could’ve stayed in the hotel all day and be pampered… but I had to get to classes and I had my dance competition and performance. They went pretty well. I got 2nd place (video 1) in the competition and the performance (video 2) went very well. I’m the one on the middle by the way. The blonde, of course ^^
I feel so special today since almost all of my family is here. Even Rico and Lily came to see me perform. And also, Bella had a gymnastics meet today, but she wouldn’t let me post the video because she wanted to do it herself. It’s so great to see everyone again. I’ve missed you all so much. Thanks for the lovely birthday wishes <3 Comments #1. You danced amazingly well my love, I'm glad I could be at both performances!
Niels van Loon #2. Thank you, Niels. I'm also glad that you could be there :** Amanda van Loon #3. You always dance soooo good ;p:*** Niels van Loon #4. hehehe, thanks :D Amanda van Loon #5. You know I love watching you dance ;) Niels van Loon #6. I know ;) :** Amanda van Loon Mr. Gaize, this was a tough assignment for me as I don't pay much attention to the big names out there. As for speaking to a person who I'm afraid to talk to, I'm pretty much afraid of speaking up to everyone because I'm really shy. But an email wasn't so bad! I sent a letter to my boyfriend's dad. There's a specific reason why I admire him as a person. Anyway, here's the letter I sent him:
Hi Mr. Teun, Um... so for my homework assignment, I'm supposed to send a fan letter to someone who I really admire but I'm afraid to talk to. Well... I'm not really "afraid" to talk to, but, well... I guess I'm just shy to actually approach people and say what I have to. I admire you, not because of your fame or your success, but because of who you are as a person. After everything that's happened between our families, you always seem so kind to everyone. It doesn't seem like you hold any grudges, and I think that takes a lot of courage. How can you forgive people so easily? Even those who hurt you or who think so badly of you. It seems like you always care about people, no matter what. Even when they're jerks to you :) I also want to thank you because, from what I've heard, you've been a great support. And well, I have to thank you even more because I love your son Niels :D I think he's the greatest guy ever. Oh and thank you for all the lectures that you and my mum gave us (I'm blushing as I write that). So that's it for my fan letter. I hope I can be as forgiving as you are, and learn to let go of stuff in the past like you can. I guess that takes a lot of maturity, huh? And a big heart, I'm sure. Sincerely, Amanda Pontremoli He responded to me the very next day: Hi Amanda Pontremoli, let me kick off by telling you that being shy is not a bad thing! Shy people are often the people who care the most and who have the biggest hearts, they just don't show it to everyone in the whole wide world! And now for the harder part to reply... Me not holding grudges... Well... in fact, it's more about learning how to deal with the grudges you have, or the ones other people hold against you... Because people will do that when you do something... But when they do, you have to try and be a better person and let go of the grudges so that people can live together in harmony... F.e. I do no longer really care about the fact some of your family members have been mean to me, because I desire our families to be together without fights, because you and Niels love each other. And apart from that, me and your mum are friends too! And about thanking me: it's all ok Amanda! Just listen to the words we've spoken and we won't have to lecture you again... And don't thank me for Niels, it's not me who made him fall for you :p And if I was a support, I'm glad about that! And to be the way you state in that last part, you have to learn how to put things aside... Sometimes it will be very hard, but then you have to bite your tongue and smile, that's how I do it... You'll find your own way over time, and it will really begi the moment you notice not everything can be the way you want it to be... That's an eye-opener mostly... With very kind regards, Teun van Loon That's all for my assignment, Mr. Gaize. I'm glad I chose Mr. Teun, as I couldn't think of anyone else who I admired except for my birth dad who I don't see very often. But he's hard to get a response from sometimes. I hope this is acceptable. It's amazing what a good night of sleep can do. It's the first time in a long time that I've had more than 4 hours of sleep. In fact, I had 10 hours of sleep! It's unbelievable! This morning, the sun is shining through the curtains, the birds are chirping, and there is an angel soundly asleep beside me :) Last night, I tried in vain to keep my eyes open, but all this dance training is certainly kicking my butt. As I sit up, my sore muscles protest, but it's a reminder of all my hard work. With a smile, I take a book that I bought yesterday, from my bag, and sneak into Marit's room. I know she likes to learn new things so hopefully she'll like the present that I leave on her side table. And now... time to make breakfast. Hmm... I hope every morning can be this beautiful. Comments #1. *cheers* Aren't you the best!!!! Thank you BFF for the book! I L-O-V-E IT! *hugs... carefully* Don't want you to suffer more than those muscle aches... ;)
Marit Boterhoek #2. *giggles* You're welcome. I'm glad you L-O-V-E it! *hugs her back* Amanda van Loon #3. It's perfect! But... why did you gave me this, my birthday isn't till somewhere this month! Yours is tomorrow, so... you should be the one getting gifts, right? Marit Boterhoek #4. Mine is Friday *pokes her tongue out* And well... I just felt like it. *shrugs and smiles* Amanda van Loon #5. Friday!! Right... *frowns and looks at the calendar* Right! Marit Boterhoek #6. *giggles* Amanda van Loon #7. Party time!!! WHOOHOO!!! Marit Boterhoek #8. Um... I don't really care for a party that much. Amanda van Loon #9. *frowns* You're such a... pretty little bird sometimes... No party? Come on Manda!! Marit Boterhoek #10. *grins, amused* a pretty little bird? I don't feel like planning a party... I have my performance around 2pm and then I'll be tired. Amanda van Loon #11. Who says YOU have to plan a party? *grins* Marit Boterhoek #12. Glad you slept well my love :DDD and yeah, you don't need to plan anything baby *teasing grin* Niels van Loon #13. Oh... well if that's the case.... *laughs softly* I guess it's out of my hands. Amanda van Loon #14. *grins* You mind? Niels van Loon #15. No *smiles* Maybe it would be a good way to end the week. And besides, I have no clue how to plan a party anyway. Amanda van Loon #16. *smiles* Well, than me and my sis will put our heads together to plan something, maybe *grins* Niels van Loon #17. You really don't have to though.... Amanda van Loon #18. Maybe we want it :p Niels van Loon #19. ok then ^^ Amanda van Loon #20. *blows a kiss at her*So you just sit back and relax those sore muscles Niels van Loon #21. Hmm... not a problem *smiles and blows a kiss back* Amanda van Loon #22. *smiles* Good girl!! Niels van Loon ..I'm counting down the days until many things. Until I see my family again... Until I turn 15... Until I perform on stage again... I hope it'll be a good week!! Comments #1. I'm looking forward to those things, andI I hope you'll have a great week my love <3 I love you <3
Niels van Loon #2. I hope you'll have a great week too. I love you awfully much <33 Amanda van Loon #3. *blows many kisses* Niels van Loon #4. *blows back many kisses* Amanda van Loon #5. Guess what happens in 7 days, Amanda! Alexandre Shaw #6. What?? Amanda van Loon #7. My 1st zombie hunt! :P Alexandre Shaw #8. Oh cool! Are you ready? ^^ Amanda van Loon #9. To be honest, I'm not sure. O.O Maybe I'll go at same time with my dad or some other adult I know. Alexandre Shaw #10. Have fun with that. I think your dad and my mum usually go around the same time. Amanda van Loon #11. Thanks! And I think you're right.. Alexandre Shaw #12. They always seem to have fun, so I'm sure you will too :) Amanda van Loon #13. Guess you're right. Hopefully they don't bite me a lot.. :D Alexandre Shaw #14. Luckily your dad's a doctor :) Amanda van Loon #15. That's true! Alexandre Shaw #16. See? You'll be fine. Amanda van Loon #17. You're probably right. :) Alexandre Shaw #18. Are you counting down the days too? Amanda van Loon #19. Yeah! You bet I am. :D Alexandre Shaw #20. hehe, good luck when that day comes :) Amanda van Loon #21. Well I sure could use some of that. So thanks! :P Alexandre Shaw #22. You're welcome :) Amanda van Loon #23. And hey, in one year I can go too :p Amanda van Loon #24. Oh great! You turn 16 before that. :) Alexandre Shaw #25. Yeah, she does, that's why I'm not hunting yet, cause I'm waiting for my cute girlfriend to join me in the crypt <3 Niels van Loon #26. And my boyfriend will turn 17 before that. He's waiting so he can go hunting with me for the first time ^^ Amanda van Loon #27. What he said ^^ Amanda van Loon As she walked along the beach, she collected shells. The cool spring breeze blew through her hair, making her shiver and draw her coat closed. She sighed and closed her eyes, basking in the glow of the morning sun. There was no one around at this time of the day, and while it was mildly scary, it was also peaceful. Here, she had some time to think. She stood, facing the ocean waters, and tossed the first shell into the waves. Goodbye to illogical fears... Walking along the beach again, she pelted another shell into the waters. Good riddance unnecessary envy... For a while longer, she strolled along the sand and threw the final shell into the sea.Farewell to sadness... With a sigh, she lifted her face to the sky and inhaled deeply. Could she really get rid of it all so easily? She continued walking for a while until she reached the end of the stretch. She walked onto the grassland and dropped her book bag. And without much thought, she began to dance her bad feelings away... Comments #1. I love you
Niels van Loon #2. I love you too... Amanda van Loon #3. *blows a kiss* Niels van Loon #4. *blows a kiss back* Amanda van Loon #5. Where are you? :( Niels van Loon |
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